have you ever danced with the devil in the pale moonlight?

hi all.

well, i'm not sure what i'm thinking with that subject title. it's been bugging me since wednesday, and then i remembered/googled that it was from one of the batman films. it's kinda eerie; the quote i mean. but i can't put my finger on the reason why.

so, what's been happening? a little stagnation, and trepidation. you ever have that mix of feelings when you design something in your head (even if it's an outfit for work or a recipe for dinner, i'm not talking just art) that you actually become fearful of putting/trying it reality, because you don't know if it'll be true to your vision or just not work? ja, that's what's happening over here. i have only one tower for 'the northern model', and i don't want to keep punching holes in it unnecessarily, 'cause i only have one. aw merde, i promised you photos! can you wait for next tuesday? i've been taking them on my cell, and i have to transfer them to a memory stick and then adjust and label them for flickr... ugh, what a hassle it is to keep records of your progress. but if you don't, you don't get marked.

last night turned into a bit of a long one. i think my muse is narcoleptic: the fits of creativity are rare and far between. ended up writing 2 and 1/2 pages of one of my latest novel attempts, known here as HAK. it doesn't seem like much, but it resolved some of the mystery behind one of the characters. egads, but it's difficult trying to write for this genre; and yes, i'm talking about the latest to resurge on silver screen: vampires and werewolves. but i'm twisting it (hopefully), and making it my own (hopefully). but there isn't a huge market for that kind of writer in south africa. we had that film come out recently, 'Eternity', that didn't even show at regular theaters around here. it vanished amidst international reaching. but the point: ja, i'm not sure how this'll be taken. i'm modeling my style after S. Roit and Robin McKinley, blunt 1st POV in a place you think you know but don't. haha, i'm so cryptic! go read their stuff!

it's after 3pm and i desperately want to get home and into casual clothes, and maybe have a nap. i'm so tired, and i'm so angry at my body and mind! no matter what time i get into bed, it's only after 2 or 3am that i drift off; and then it depends on whether i've had a glass of booze or not, 'cause with it i sleep 6 hours straight and then in dead fits, or without i sleep/wake in fits and just take forever to get out of bed. MERDE!!

goodnight readers, and i'll see you all (in my imagination) next tuesday with some photos of 'the northern model', and hopefully some other crafty stuff that will give you a better picture of me.

chow