You're supposed to mind the sheep, not eat them

my flat is clean! ok, not of dust-bunnies, but i've finally gotten the installation mess out of the flat and into my small room in clay. so, mega YAY, i don't have to keep tripping over things.

my arms are sore! this week has been killer on my stamina. i've carried 4 dead pc towers up to varsity this week, plus 2 bags of sundry junk. what's left is my tools at home that i will cart up here on the days i work on my installations, but otherwise stay at home.

me head is warped! i don't know if you've ever experienced this kind of dreaming: you're between reality and fantasy. it's hyperreal. it's like you're experiencing life on acid, or other uppers. everything is so viviv, so potent, but you're uneasy because something is not quite right. it's perhaps what delusions are like: so real, so here, so impossible. it's exhausting, and i've been having them this whole past week. my routine isn't drastically changed or altered: still on the same meds, trying to keep to an 11pm curfew, blah blah.

ok, enough of the exclamation marks. it's time for me to go, late and all. whoa is the reader that expects something that i don't remember to bring, or don't have the energy to continue.

chow all.

"it is the calm and silent water that drowns a man"

IT'S POURING!!!!! omgs, where the hell did this storm come from? it's like mega-shock with thunder and RAIN!!! fck, i don't know if i should switch off. hold that thought.

alright, been advised by teak to switch off in here since we don't have surge protector machine thingys.

see you all tomorrow!

"I'll get you, my pretty, and your little dog too!"

so starts the quotes title chapter of my blog.

hello again everybody. it's been a horrible, strange and unfileable last two weeks. i have been predominantly exhausted by who-knows-what, possibly stress, possibly a sleep demon, possibly nerves, i'm not sure at all. it's been blah, and i have wanted to curl up and hibernate for most of it. this week is a slightly different version of the last two weeks: i dub it the 'lady austen' week. yeah, should say enough.

so. the clay issue. as usual, the whole mater was completely blown out of proportion in my world (by me of course). the fact was that pasta as a teacher needed the whole room, due her's for respect and her position, and they wanted me to move out to show her that due. i had a talk (and apology) with primrose, and he's allowed me to have a small space, as long as i show i'm using it, and am around for assessment and looking. the 3rd years and other undergrads are giving me these 'infringement' looks, but i'll work on them with my personality (if not that, my hammer and noises, lol).
so, i'm going to be in three places every week: home or library for research, cva for digital and 2d stuff, clay for installation and sculpture. whew, just stating it makes me feel stretched out too thin, but this is what i fought for, and damnit, i will fight my body for it to happen too.

what will i be doing in clay? well... do you remember the installation project i mentioned earlier, the northern model? i'm going to be totally expanding on that. i'm planning on using the infrastructure of pc towers to make a hybrid world of dollhouses, between cyber culture and classic porcelain culture (and other clays). i'm wanting to develop my modeling and technical skills in clay and metalworks. i've realized just a little before too late, that this and next year i need to develop skills that can be used in realistic jobs. so: LOTS OF CATCHING UP!!! cva work is gonna be killer too, 'cause i need to up the skilling in photoshop, flash, illustrator and corel. yeesh. and i'm including painting in the whole mess too. yes, i'm crazy. haven't you realized this yet?

let me clarify what the projects/specific artings are:
klava - installations = pc towers + clay models = dollhouses
teak - digital 2D = flash animations + photoshop posters + corel paintings = masters animation
riff (myself) - HAK = book + scene paintings & portfolio experimentation

lots of luck and perseverance is needed for 2011 and 2012. but, i have my family and those i respect outside my family to help me along. if only i could get the sandman on my side, sheesh, i need some coherent sleep!

ok, that's enough for today. kinda catch-up, kinda preview. i'll be taking photos this week of my studio spaces so you can get an idea of what i'm working in/with, but that's about it for photos.

thanks for reading, and chow

break/brake life

hi all.

i'm sorry to announce that this blog and i will be on hiatus until next tuesday (12 April 2011). i'm sorry that i didn't tell you sooner, but i've been having a very interesting AND very rough two weeks, and i've had days i don't want to whinge/whine to you about, and days that i choose not to tell you about because the are mine to keep.

hopefully i will be recovered enough by next tuesday to report once again on projects and life. bear with me.

chow